Hey Hey Slow down

woooooooooooooooooooo... going hyper too much milo dinosaur.. sugar rush. just to stay up late to study for SPM. by the grace of God hope that pays off. moving on I got one big problem I'm easily distracted. By what you might ask? OOO that you can ask a few people that would be Jeremy, Andrian or my mum or my elder brother...(I'm not telling) XD.

since the middle of this year I've been struggling with something . with something.. I all happend at one camp somewere in selangor.. it was something for scout leaders to go or rather PLTC. 1st day i went there after the registration and all the setting up of the camp site. We all gathered back at the assembly hall or foyer. (this was a school). we grouped in to patrols named after animal mine was Viper . ROFL. as the seniors ( form 4 and 5) were supposed to work together, there was allot of interaction between the senior groups compared to the junior groups..

This is when i saw her... she flicked her hair nad turned around.. my heart skipped a few beats. her eye were lovely , her hair so silky. her face so radiant.

throughout the camp i got to know her.. finally we exchanged contacts and after the camp we said our goodbyes.

after this camp we still kept in touch. sms msn you name it. I really wanted to tell her i like her.. But there's one big problem.. I think to myself i have to realistic she lives in PJ i'm in subang how on earth am i goin to see her.. whats more i only got to know of her this year. We may be friends but i don't think we're that close and if i say that to her will it end our friendship.?

this 's what's been bothering me this pass few months. To say or not to say. ask or no to ask. will she or will she not. will it do more harm than good. all these questions boggle my mind. arhhhh.

Putting that aside on a lighter note, that's the on area of my life troubling me at the moment . The rest is just awesome. great friends, great family and a Great God .

Inspiring

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cross roads

life is full of these from what i have gone though. You take a turn and you might miss out on something else. the worst part is you can't make a U-turn and go back. Sacrifices have to be made.. this does not mean big ones only but the little things too.. Such as i have give up playing around and slacking to study for a better future. Parents HELP alot in guiding you though the turns in life.. Thank GOD for them. they make life so much more simple and you don't get hurt so much when you fall. I think one's teenage years is the part of ones life that is filled with these cross roads. cause i had to give up quite a few thinks to make way for new things in my life.

School

it's coming to an end.. My schooling life. what experiences that were experienced. what i'll give to do it a second time :D. but life has to go on. i wondering why all the good stuff happened when i'm leaving the school. it's weird. totally. But in the present time allot is going on. I say. so much drama in school. lucky i got my good friends in school to back me up and my brothers in cell for support. for a long time i have been wondering what's the big fuss about having a girlfriend or boyfriend. isn't it a boy or a girl that's a friend.i come to realise that some of us may feel that desire to be with someone is uncontrollable. This is nonsense.. it only lead to disaster if you follow your heart. I have seen many of my friends relationship crash or ended because of this fact. Love is not a feeling. It's a commitment. something you have to build on. It must not be taken for granted. Having A BF or GF is not A fad . please people do hook up just to show the whole world that you have someone..YOU're sending allot of wrong messages to people by doing so.. and don't tell me you're lonely , don't you have your friends and parents. can't you open up to them. find somebody who can be accountable for you don't bottle up your burdens in yourself share it with someone you trust. does not have to be your GF or BF .

Cut The Crap

week and months of play have to come to an end... SPM a few more moths a way and i'm still playing a fool... So now i'm regretting it. I'm in overdrive studying like a lunatic. To catch up on lost time. What to do day in day out see TV, Play Com. Today lagi sad all the scout court of honour retire including me .. very sad la . last year T_T..then today some more IU day I could not go. my mum don't let me go.. sigh... what to do...

slowing down

I'm losing momentum... i used to be a fast learner. i think i must concentrate more and be more disciplined. pew.. i think once in a while we have to slow down and pause at what God has taught us and be grateful of what he has given us. With this we can keep our pride and ego from getting the best of us. too much pride and ego can seriously harm people around you in ways that you wont know. We also pause to listen and learn without this we will no be able to absorb what other people are trying to say to us .

MSSS Squash

i lost......... yahoo . in the singles event i lost.. not enough training.. all the blubber... to late to make a fuss. tomorow still got the team event. hopefully my teamates are ready. i fell down . srapped my skin on the floor. crazy man .